I don’t know what I was thinking back then. I should’ve said ‘no’. I should’ve thought about what would’ve happened if I said ‘yes’. Apparently, I didn’t. I didn’t say no. I didn’t even think about the consequences. I was too caught up in the excitement. Now, it’s too late to go back to change it. No, I don’t regret it. I was happy. But… it hurts. It hurts not only for me, but for him as well. If I said ‘no’, then right now, we wouldn’t be hurting. You can say that this problem was all my fault.
Thinking back, I was a stupid, stupid little girl. That dream I had, the one that turned out to be true, maybe it should’ve just stayed a dream. Now, it’s too late to change things. It’s too late. Way too late. I’ll just hope that everything will turn out right, and drown myself in nightmares.